Dear Malati dd, dear Madhavaji!
Joy Sri Radhe!
Joy Srila Gurudeva!
this morning, during my bhajan-hours, i got some very nice realizations and
some very heartfelt thoughts crept into my silly mind.
as i was sitting there, staring at my little altar, with those new "initiation"-pictures,
i suddenly felt so happy and comfortable.
like a movie, my time at Sri Radhakunda with you gentle souls just passed before my inner eyes.
our meeting at the MVT, your very friendly "welcoming-us", it was so nice
to finally meet you.
i sweetly remembered our first evening there at the Holiest Lake.
you so kindheartedly showed me around and i just loved to be taken care of.
last time i was there, i felt overwhelmingly alone. but in your association i could feel safe and guided.
then as we met Srila Gurudeva for the first, i felt totally at home.
i guess you both really dont know what ecstatically wonderful seva you do to fallen souls like me.
without you i would have never been able to make those precious steps i made.
thank you again and again.
having very little time for yourselves, you took me on Goverdhan-parikrama the next day. how merciful. i felt again taken care of like a little child.
when i woke up that day, i knew that all was fine.
and this morning i vividly remembered my diksha-day. my dream came true.
and all the arrangements around it.
the room you provided, first of all.
then you took care of Moni and her friends, we later met , took lunch prasadam...
again i want to say to you to make you realize what wonderful things you did to us (Moni & me). we felt so HAPPY.
whenever i re-think these awesome, out-of-this-world days, i also remember your patience, Madhavaji, with my mleccha-passion and my arrogance...
and i remember your kindness, dear Malati dd, always thinking of the well-being of others.
i was so thankful that i could do some small seva for you (bread, little cooking, veggies). but thats just like a drop compared to the ocean of mercy you gave me (and thus also Moni).
day by day i am allowed to feel what it meant, this incredible trip to the realm of devotion, to the lotus feet of a true Gurudeva.
thanks to you, my dear gentle souls.
and i guess many of us here feel similarly thankful.
so i am showing you my heart and there are those letters on it: